Simply Dou

#48 ~ Winter? Still...

2012-02-22T16:39:00.001-08:00

The Fashion
Last time I looked - it was still Winter.

Skin: .::MotherGoose's::. Devon - LB

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: - DAMNED -Eyes Make Up Review - Gold

Make-Up: Cheap MakeupTableau Lashes FREE

Hair: .: vive nine :.BangedUp Braid in Brunne (Collabor88)

Eyes: .ID. DecemberGift / Blue

Lashes: Mynerva

Lashes: .ploom.Lashes 6

Jacket: ** [ Riddle ]** Winter Blue Coat - White

T-Shirt: *RezlpsaLoc* - Love. Tee (Seraphim Gift)

Shorts: *COCO* Gift - Denim Shorts (Group Gift)

Tights: *Rezlpsa Loc*Heart Stockings - Patina

Bag: ::Kookie:: FunTote / Cookies (Limited Time Pricing)

Boots: {mon tissu}Heathrow Boots / Ash

Pose: Label Motion

Location: LongAwkward Poses - Festivale

Listening: Adele "DayDreamer"

#47 ~ Starved

2012-02-22T08:18:00.001-08:00

The Real
Feel like it's squeezing...

The Fashion

Skin: .ploom. - Lea - Milk (LB) *PROMO*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Make-Up: ::Plastic Flowers:: Black Eyeshadow

Make-Up: *Fishy* Kokeshi Eyes - Smokey Plum

Hair: Amacci Hair - Pythia ~ Lilac (Festival of Sin)

Eyes: :[Plastik]: Aleria Collection // Hypnotique - Grape

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Dress: *Rezlpsa Loc* ~ Bubble Dress - Plum(Festival of Sin)

Shoes: *G Field* Bow Strap Shoes "Kate" - Plum (Group Gift)

Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Necklace Lune - Plum

Pose: The Muse

Location: Spirit

Listening: Silence

#46 ~ Hollowness

2012-02-20T11:02:00.002-08:00

The Fashion
A lot has been going on as The Festival of Sin has opened it's doors this past Saturday on the 18th. The sim has been packed non-stop and it's looking fine! So much exclusive things to get for all your sinfully needs. I hope everyone gets a chance to try a little bit of everything!

Taxi to the Festival of Sin

Skin: [Pink Fuel] Alyx <Honey> - Candy Hearts (auburnbrow) (PROMO)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Make-Up: *elymode* makeup - Gluttony shadows - raspberry(full) (Festival of Sin)

Hair: MINA Hair - Moriko (Red) (Festival of Sin)

Eyes: :[Plastik]: Vae Collection - Starlight

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Jacket: R.icielli - ALEXANDRA leather python jacket

Shirt: *elymode* Lussuria tank - red (Festival of Sin)

Skirt: *elymode* Lussuria skirt - black (Festival of Sin)

Tights: *elymode* Lussuria stockings - black (Festival ofSin)

Boots: _=FORSAKEN=_ Rawr! Shoes (Seraphim Gift)

Ring: R.icielli - IRIS Skull Ring / Gold

Poses: aDORKable (Festival of Sin)

Location: Sick

Listening: A Perfect Circle "The Hollow"

#45 ~ Fragile

2012-02-19T13:46:00.001-08:00

The Fashion
Dark Raspberry for Luna's 52 Weeks of Color Challenge: Part Deux.

Caught...

Skin: .ploom. Lea _ Tea (DB) *PROMO*

Shape: My own

Feet: Slink Bare Feet *Mesh*

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes Free

Make-Up: *elymode* makeup - Gluttony shadowns - Raspberry*lower* (Festival of Sin)

Hair: ::Exile:: Magda - Raven (The Dressing Room)

Eyes: .ID. January Gift / Deep Amber

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Bodysuit: (PixelDolls) Pinup Brocade . Raspberry

Wings: *Epic* - Red Chibi Passion Sparkle Wings (ZombiePopcorn 6)

Pose: aDORKable

Location: Chouchou

Listening: Sting "Fragile"

#44 ~ What are you going to do?

2012-02-18T11:41:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
We tend to over-do it sometimes. We push limits instead of simplifying the common goal. Why not just strip it down and give way to the vanity of ourselves?

Festival of Sin opens today at 5pmSLT

Skin: .::[ Felony ]::. Lust ~ Light ~ C (Festival of SIn)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Make-Up: [mock] Darkened Mood Garnets Makeover

Hair: [Raspberry Aristocrat] Dulciana Hair - Red Passion

Eyes: .ID. January Gift / Deep Amber

Eyes: A:S:S deLuxe - Vain to the bone (eye) (Festival of Sin)

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Collar: A:S:S deLuxe - Medusea (dark) (Festival of Sin)

Mirror: estetica: vanity - mirror, mirror (Festival of Sin)

Bracelets: Zaara : Rupa kada & Eila kada (Group Gift)

Poses: aDORKable, GLITTERATI, estetica

Location: The Eros Social Club

Listening: Madonna "Justify My Love"

#43 ~ You didn't have to cut me off...

2012-02-17T07:55:00.001-08:00

The Fashion
Maybe I should haunt you in your dreams like you do mine...

Festival of Sin Opens February 18th

Skin: .::[Felony]::. Lust ~ Tan ~ C (Festival of Sin)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Hair: Amacci Hair - Bloom - Cinnamon (Festival of Sin)

Eyes: .:A&M:. Element Eyes - Ocean (Group Gift)

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Dress: Miamai - Lyssa Gown (Festival of Sin)

Boots: [Gos] Curvaceous Boots - Black

Earrings: .:A&M:. Messed Memory Wire Set

Hairpiece: La rose noire de la Reine (When the World Ends)

Pose: aDORKable "Legs Dork Pack" (Festival of Sin)

Location: The Eros Social Club, ORIGINE

Listening: Goyte "Somebody That I Used To Know"

#42 ~ But you can't deny how I feel...

2012-02-16T16:49:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
Sometimes one needs to break out of their element and show off just a little...

...and sometimes we need to break free and express ourselves a little bit deeper. Dive into those lustful delights that tease us within this world.

I think he likes it when I finally let those walls down.

Festival of Sin Opens February 18th

Skin: -Glam Affair- Linn - Valentine Skin 03 (The DressingRoom)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: *elymode* makeup - Gluttony Shadows - DarkChocolate *full* (Festival of Sin)

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableua Lashes FREE

Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Sybille2 Mesh - Black Coffee

Eyes: .ID. December Gift/ Green

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Corset & Panties: [Cynful] Aphrodisia (Lust) - Dark Red(Festival of Sin)

Shoes: Ingenue ::Khan Heels:: Soot (Festival of Sin)

Necklace (1): (Caroline's Jewelry) Tangled Mess (Festival ofSin)

Necklace (2): [ glow ] studio - Crosses Necklace (silver)(The Dressing Room)

Tattoo: ..:LiQSuM:.. "Sinfully Yours" (Fresh)

Prop: *Kabuki* Cigarette

Pose: aDORKable "Legs Dork Pack" (Festival of Sin)

Location: The Eros Social Club, ORIGINE

Listening: Portishead "Elysium"

#41 ~ I love Bon Iver...

2012-02-16T15:45:00.000-08:00

The Real
I've been listening to Bon Iver non-stop. I absolutely adore the man. Words. It's the words, man.

Doubled in the toes annex it, it minute closed in the morning
Did not lose it in the stack's stow, I'm a lay that call back on ya

You know it won't beseech you, we're laying in an open field
I will let you grow, no need to notice

So carry on my dear, what is clear up in the daylight is we're hung here
Fall is coming soon, a new year for the moon and the Hmong here

(From Minnesota, WI)

I'm a huge believer that words make the song. It's really poetry.

The Fashion

Maybe spring is around the corner....maybe not.

Skin: .::Mother Goose's::. Yvonne - freckle - 1L

Shape: My own

Make-Up: R.icielli - Freckles 3

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Miss Priss Lipgloss 1 (clear)

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Hair: >TRUTH< Pepper - Champagne

Eyes: REDGRAVE - Rihanna - Multicolor

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Sweater: [pivaaca] Cable Knitting Vest *Light Gray*(Season's Hunt - Winter)

Sweater: Doppelganger Inc. - Boyfriend Sweatshirt - DarkGrey

Pants: {SMS} Highwaist Jeans - Pink (TDR old)

Boots: FIR&MNA The Steinbeck Boots - Tan (Collabor88)

Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Bogato Necklace (TDR)

Flowers: Olive Juice *Closed*

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: bellballs.essentials / Villefranche sur Mer

Listening: Bon Iver "Minnesota, WI"

#40 ~ Festival of Sin

2012-02-15T13:00:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
Festival of Sin starts on February 18th and runs until March 3rd. The best are bringing you little and big tastes of gluttony and a whole lot of lust. Are you ready for a bit of something different to tickle your vanity?

Lets get our sin on.

#39 ~ I dropped him in a sea of knowing...

2012-02-14T15:37:00.001-08:00

The Real

When I think about writing, I think that sometimes I try too hard. That when I put words to paper - or otherwise words to the computer, that I'm pushing toward something that I shouldn't push on. Maybe it's a bit too over zealous or a bit too over the top.

Looking back on prior works, those bits of poetry, prose and stories, I was in a spot that was overly emotional, tending to lean toward the more 'pity me' parts then anything. Some - although erotic in writ, spoke to me of nothing more than a woman crying on her pillow each night. Years later, those words still seem a bit strained, but they're just words aren't they?

I dropped him in a sea of knowing

Allowing him to gasp for air…

He struggled within my waves, drowning

In my knowledge that he couldn’t see

Nor hear, taste…

His mouth filling with tears as I watched the waves take him

Further from me, never letting

His legs, struggling to keep him afloat

Pumped like pistons only to be caught

As I dived in and held on,

Dragging him further underneath

Not letting him know

That I knew…

2007 (S.O.A.)

#38 ~ Butterlies and hurricanes...

2012-02-12T08:21:00.000-08:00

The Fashion

Folly.

I luckily had this in my inventory from January. The Sea Hole's The Heron Skirt and Umbrella from Collabor88.

Skin: al vulo - Corinna - Love Motion Porcelain *Group Gift*

Shape: My Own

Hair: >TRUTH< Monica - Silver

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Blue

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Shirt: Nyte'N'Day - Crush Shirt - Tan (With Love Hunt)

Skirt: The Sea Hole - Heron Skirt - Clayberry (C88)

Boots: *G Field* [Mesh] Lace-Up Boots - Berry

Prop: The Sea Hole - Heron Parasol - Clayberry

Pose: Olive Juice (Closed) *sadface*

Location: Villefranche sur Mer

Listening: Muse "Butterflies and Hurricanes"

#37 ~ Wuther my heart follows...

2012-02-11T19:11:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
I figure that I would try messing in PS to see what I could do. I really don't like to manipulate the photos I take in SL for the mere fact that I do think it takes away the rawness of it, but sometimes - the work that I see is amazing. And yes, I want to do so as well. So I just messed around.

Did it change the colors a bit? - Yes
Did it alter the skin, clothing and hair? - Yes
So will this look like this in SL? - No...but I'm telling you this now. Everything I wear is still beautiful, even in raw form.

Skin: - Quarantine - Fragmented Love Vintage Doll Skin(Zombie Popcorn Hunt 6)

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: [mock] Darkened Mood Garnets Makeover {eyes/lips}

Hair: [elikatira] Abbey - Blonde 07 *Mesh*

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Green

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Dress: Kyoot - Bronte Dress (Earnshaw) (Collabor88)

Stockings: Izzie's Tights - Torn

Boots: *G Field* [Mesh] Lac-Up Boots "Gina" -Black

Earrings: Dark Mouse - Charming Bows Earrings (ValentineGatcha - Shopping Cart Disco)

Braces: Leg Braces (Old ... store not found)

Pose: aDORKable

Location: COCO Designs -*DOLLCOCO*

Listening: R.E.M. "Shiny Happy People"

#36 ~ Promise

2012-02-10T08:34:00.000-08:00

The Real
A lot of time I procrastinate. I realize this isn't a good thing, and I know I shouldn't. That there are so many hours in the day. Days in the week. Weeks in the month, before the end in which deadlines will come and those days that happen and I need to focus with those deadlines...it's just at an end. But maybe one cannot come out of their procrastination. Maybe this is what and who they are. They are forever caught in this little bit of procrastination cycle that is bleating like forever baby sheep, wanting to grow out of it, but never really doing so.

You would think, for a woman who has done and did a few things, that this would be something that I could get by and move on from, but it's embedded into my psyche it seems. As much as I tell myself that I will change for the better and do this or that, I can't seem to pick up the motivation of that particular thing and push the procrastination effect away from me. I would hope that one day - I could just wake up and it would have left, leaving the front door open in its wake, but it's still lingering in the hallway, bags packed - almost like it's wanting me to beg for it to stay.

I wish I had the strength to yell and scream for it to go. Instead, I just walk back into my bedroom and close the door.

The Fashion

Skin: -tb- Gatcha Skin - Date Night (Season's Gatcha -Winter)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Make-Up: cheLLe (eyeliner) EyePop Blueberry

Hair: [Shag] - Your Wish - Eve (Project Themeory)

Eyes: :[Plastik]: Vae Collection - Senn

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Dress: [Aura] Balloon Dress - Leopard Blue - *Mesh*(Valentine Gatcha - Shopping Cart Disco)

Pants: (MIlk Motion) My Boyfriend Jeans (Old FLF)

Scarf: -paper.doll- Leopard - January Gift (old)

Shoes: R2 " Kanaloa Elua - Sky *Mesh* (Collabor88)

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: Whisky a Go Go

Listening: Ciara "Promise"

#35 ~ I can't make you love me...

2012-02-09T16:10:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
I've fallen in love with Bon Iver...

Skin: -Glam Affair- Linn Light - Primavera - BL HB (TDR)

Shape: My Own

Hair: >TRUTH< Gianna 2 w/Roots - sandlewood

Eyes: Mayfly - Deep Sky Mesh Eye (Deep Honey Amber)

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Dress: (PRISS) - Vaudeville Girl Dress in Mustard *Dollarbie*

Tights: Izzie's - Tights Large Dots

Boots: *G Field* [Mesh] Lace-Up Boots - Black

Purse: (PRISS) - Reid Hand Carry Bag in Red (Project Theromy)

Pose: Magnifique Poses

Location: Virtual Harlem

Listening: Bon Iver "I Can't Make You Love Me"

#34 ~ Cornflake Girl

2012-02-08T18:06:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
Newness at Elikatira! Newness at Collabor88!

Skin: [Aura] Briar - Berlin - VIP - Cream *Group Gift*

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Make-up Layer 01

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Latex Liner Dark Burgundy

Make-Up: [Aura] Briar - Coral Lipstick - Cream

Hair: [e] Abbey - Brown 08 *MESH* (NEW!)

Eyes: .:A&M:. Element Eyes - Sea Foam *Group Gift*

Dress: The Sea Hole - Nausicaa Dress - Crimson (C88)

Shoe: [Pixel Mode] Fae Wedge - Khaki

Purse: (PRISS) Reid Bag in Blue (Project Themeory)

Jewelry: The Sea Hole - Nausicaa Laurel - Slate Blue (C88)

Pose: Magnifique Poses

Location: Lula

Listening: Tori Amos "Cornflake Girl"

#33 ~ Tell me lies...

2012-02-07T06:40:00.000-08:00

The Real
Got to break it down and get busy. Another application in and more studying to do. March 2nd here I come!

The Paradise
You truly find out who your friends are in this maddening world. No wonder my list is uber small.

The Fashion
Peek-a-boo!

Skin: [Atomic] Grace Skin (DB) Buff - Red Hot (TDR Exclusive)

Shape: My own

Hair: "LoQ Hair" Tiramisu - Black *Group Gift*

Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Make-Up Layer 01

Eyes: .ID. Thank You Gift

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Nails: * Rezlpsa Loc * ~ Honeysuckle Pink Nails

Shirt: MONS / February Bodysuit - red (TDR)

Panties: *Connors* H/W PANTALOON Black

Shoes: [celoe] zoe.pumps - Mahogany

Earrings: "LoQ" Be My Valentine <3

Purse: je suis...sauvage clutch zebra (gold) *MESH*

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Cupcake Sim

Listening: Fleetwood Mac "Little Lies"

#32 ~ You know how I feel....

2012-02-05T08:09:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
This week's color is Alice Blue over on Luna's blog.

I wonder how many will do Alice in Wonderland? Thought about it, but then with all the photos going about on Flickr and Plurk of people's undies...well, I had to toss mine in.

Skin: .::Mother Goose's::. Bomi Teeth - *Freebie - 1L*
Shape: My own
Hair: ::Exile:: Josie - Rust (TDR)
Eyes: [:T:] gem eyes :: sapphire
Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6
Nails: * Rezlpsa Loc * ~ Honeysuckle Pink Nails

Shirt: *Fishy Strawberry* Faux Corset Sequins Tee - Blue (TDR)
Panties: Black&Blue Outfitters Snowflake Chonies (Old hunt gift)
Shoes: *Kookie* Snugs - Dirty Ash (Group Gift)

Piano: LISP - Piano Smooth Wood - Ash (C88)
Chair: LISP - Snowflake Tag Chair - White
Pose: GLITTERATI
Location: My home
Listening: Michael Buble "Feeling Good"

#31 ~ Good

2012-02-04T15:25:00.000-08:00

Writings (from 2009)

When I thought maybe for sure that things would turn around, Bad things would happen, which would mean Good would have been just around the corner. I waited for it, a bit impatiently like all things I do and when Good came around the corner, I snatched it up, holding close to my chest, feeling it squiggly for release. I wasn’t going to let go.

But I would have to let go of Good in order to let it flourish, so I did. I watched it sit there, blink its eyes at me and speak in gargled noises that it was going to do fine. See! Everything will be okay. Such relief. For once – life would be on track. So, I let Good go on its way to do its deed. And I waited…and waited…

Good came hopping back – showing me its treasures that it had found on its hunt to make the most of a happy life. Here! , it squeaked. Take! Memories of laughter, music for lovers, good food, a sprinkle of friends. Here! An opportunity to advance, to make better. Move on…Good giggled in response.

Yet, in my impatient haste I stumbled. I dropped Good’s presents into the dirt, letting them fester in the muck of disdain and sorrow. I watched the millions of arms grab hold of Good’s gift and suck the light from its soul. I could do nothing but allow the sweet stench of misery to begin its hover toward me. Good only blinked, gargled nonsense, hop to and fro. I reached for Good, hoping it would see my need, my desires, but Good hopped further back, finally turning around and disappearing down the hole.

I followed, finally bending down to look inside the undergrowth he had slipped through. What I saw would amaze me…I saw only…myself.

#30 ~ Lucky to be here...

2012-02-03T07:51:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
One place I always fall back on for pictures is [WOS] Missing Mile Dark Rural Community - This is your Life! on the Soap Sim. It's an open RP Sim to all who would love to go and just roleplay - they welcome all forms of life too! When landing in, you're given a set of rules (just like on any RP sim) and from there, you can go about and immerse yourself into the rural life of this small town.

Skin: -Glam Affair- Nina (With Love Hunt *old)

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes FREE

Make-Up: cheLLe (eyeliner) EyePop Grape

Hair: [e] Comfort - Brown 11 *VIP Collection*

Eyes: .ID. December Gift - Blue Green

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Top: The Secret Store - Empire Blouse - Liberty *MESH* (NEW!)

Pants: The Secret Store - Flared Pants - Caramel

Shoes: ::HH:: Hucci D'Ann Pump - Coral Limited Edition *Group Gift*

Necklace: *League* Double Stranded Soft Pearl Necklace

Glasses: INSOLENCE - Danielle Black Glasses

Purse: PRISS - Ereenu Oversized Clutch - Pink

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: The Missing Mile Dark Rural Community

Listening: Adele "Chasing Pavements"

#29 ~ sTUCk

2012-02-01T20:01:00.000-08:00

The Paradise
Five become Four.
Stuck.
January comes into February. They say that the first month is the hardest...it is..we are entering week four and we are down to four.

Either I see red or just let it go. This side of RP can be so cold.

Oh...and fuck you NOR. Losing my levels...wtf....*grumbles*

#28 ~ She's been everyone else's girl...

2012-01-31T19:28:00.000-08:00

The Fashion:

Skin: .ploom. - Lea_Cream - LB - Smoke *PROMO*

Shape: My own

Hair: (Milana) Emma - Light Blondes

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / BlueGreen

Eyelashes: .ploom. Lashes 6

Shirt: JANE - francie so innocent blouse.milk

Skirt: LeeZu! Nuage Skirt / Art Nouvelle *MESH* (NEW)

Shoes: [LeLutka] - Saffron Pumps (Neutral Sand)

Pose: Magnificant Poses

Location: LaPerla II Old Italy

Listening: Tori Amos "Girl"

#27 ~ Scribble

2012-01-30T20:31:00.000-08:00

The Real
They say the stars and planets are aligning. That right now is the luckiest of chances. To whom will those lucks of nature come to? Will they come to those that pray for deliverance, or those that wish upon falling stars? What if ones don't believe in such fairytales?

I wish I could believe in fairytales. I do remember a time when I did. But it was so long ago, now I wonder if the stories are just figments of my imagination. Images and words in the shallow creases of my mind. They are there...hidden.

Can I find them?

#26 ~ Patina, Potato

2012-01-29T08:03:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
The colors of Patina....

For Luna's 52 Weeks' of Color Challenge: My version was a quick hop over to the new store Entente where I lagged myself along with a few others and grabbed a few things for the girls...(from what I hear there will be more!) I had hoped to find something in my massive inventory on Katy (the avi I tend to use a lot for my pictures), but since I had been at the new store, I felt it only best to show off the new duds.

Skin: .ploom. Lea - Cream - DB - Smoke *PROMO*

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Babysitters Club Lashes

Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Charity 2

Hair: >TRUTH< Valeska w/Roots - Cocoa

Eyes: .:A&M:. Element Eyes - Ocean (Group Gift)

Eyelashes: .ploom. - Lashes 6

Jacket: Armidi - Classic Pinstripe Blazer [Burgundy]

Tank: JANE - intrinsic.tank - brown truffle

Pants: Entente - Classic Chinos - Green *NEW*

Shoes: *G Field* Flower Pumps - Eve - Chocolate (Group Gift)

Bag: ::Duh!:: Seasons Hunt Fall Bag

Pose: [.doll]

Location: Tableau

Listening: Maroon 5 "Makes Me Wonder"

#25 ~ The Rebel's Woman...

2012-01-28T17:14:00.000-08:00

The Paradise
Under the weighted boot of El Generale, those within Cassava need an ear and hope. They look to those who are young and strong. Ones that would stand up to the cruelty that the he has brought into the city and country, in hopes that they will have a chance to regain somewhat of their livelihood back.

They are The Uprising. A young group of individuals, locals of the isle striving for a purpose. Some are thieves, others hold respectable jobs, some are fathers, mothers - your sister...

The Fashion
Taken at the Rebel's base on Cassava Island, home of Paradise Lost Roleplay

Skin: - DAMNED - MHO1 Hunt Gift
Shape: My Own
Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Diligence 1
Hair: "LoQ Hair" Cobbler - Hypnotic Red *Group Gift*
Eyes: :[Plastik]: - Aleria Collection/Seelie - Blu
Eyelashes: Mynerva
Tattoo: You + Me = Fuck

Top: [ SAKIDE ] Ribbed Tee-shirt Dress Wine
Tape: :[Plastik]: Bandaids <3 U-Darkest
Skirt: [ Cynful ] Poskskirt - 2012 Special Outfit
Stockings: *League* Side-Gartered Stockings - Bramble
Boots: drd lazyheel *Zombie Popcorn*
Bag: DECO - Slingback (Skulls) *MESH* (Group Gift)
Earrings: [Aura] Phosphorus - Club Hoops - Coral
Rings: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Cassava Island
Listening: Don Henley "Boys of Summer"

#24 ~ Opaque

2012-01-27T16:10:00.000-08:00

The Real
Not transparent or translucent; impenetrable to light; not allowing light to pass through.
Not shining or bright; dark, dull.
Hard to understand.
Opaque.

I always thought opaque was a beautiful word. It's meaning though sounds rather depressing. This is what you get for really learning about a GRE word.

The Fashion

Skin: al vulo! - may ghost of the past porcelain *gift*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Babysitters Club Lashes

Hair: ::Exile:: Josie - Moonlight (TDR)

Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Green

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: R.icielli - DYLIA leather jacket / red

T-Shirt: -tres blah- C88 Graphic Tee - Love Potion No9 (C88)

Jeans: .:Acid&Mala:. I <3 my jeans - Low Rise - Ripped - Dark Blue

Boots: [Gos] Aviator Boot - Amelia in Worn

Hat: [NSD] Rufus Cap / Red (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Purse: :pesca: chained bag gacha check and leather (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Earrings: ::HH:: Hucci Tres Circle Earrings LRG (Group Gift)

Ring 1: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Ring 2: ~Pepper~ Pieces Ring

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Missing Mile

Listening: Dave Matthews Band "Cornbread"

#23 ~ He is the grand optimist..I am the world's poor pessimist

2012-01-25T19:07:00.000-08:00

The Real
Everyday it's a new day. Each morning, I have to get up and start fresh. Although it seems dull and mediocre, it's something I have to do everyday in order to get through. I wake up. I read. I drink my coffee. I study. I job search. I play a little. Rinse and repeat until it's time to go to bed.

Words are little and barely said except for those in world or across the screen via a chat.

This is my world.

The Paradise
We are picking up! Two new PROs are started. An herb shop and jack of all trades place with it's own helicopter. Of course it's got a bit illegal going on, but it's bound to have some great stories coming out of it.

The Fashion
I do enjoy going to the Cupcake Sim where a lot of my favorite stores are, such as Milk Motion, The Secret Store, and Tee*fy. The cobblestones make for a great catwalk.

Skin: -tres blah- Gatcha Skin: Date Night (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: Grixdale - Body Shoppe - Seafoam

Make-Up: PIDIDDLE Cosmetics - Pearly Whites

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Miss Priss Lipgloss 1 (clear)

Hair: Analog Dog - Washu - Spice (Christmas Gift)

Eyes: REDGRAVE - Rihanna - Multicolor

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: Tee*fy Long Loose Belt Dust Pink (FLF)

Top: R.icielli - GEORGIA body/nude (part of)

Skirt: Chain and Vine - Suede Mini - Curvy - Blue *MESH* (Group Gift)

Stockings: jOLIE! Edenish floral stockings

Boots: {mon tissu} Heathrow Boots *MESH*

Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Tripple Chain (silver chirstmass) (TDR)

Brooch: undefined lillies - tackered owl (silver/purple) (Group Gift)

Ring: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy RIng - Lost at Sea Sp. Edition (Group Gift)

Bag: Tee*fy Full Leather Holdall Bag Unisex (FLF)

Pose: Magnificant Poses

Location: Cupcake Sim

Listening: City and Colour "Grand Optimist"

#22 ~ Flicker...

2012-01-24T19:40:00.000-08:00

The Real
The position was giving away. Back to the drawing board. I really hate being without a job. To someone that has been working since she's been fourteen years old - not working is a little weird, and not satisfying. I will keep my fingers crossed and keep plugging.

The Paradise
I haven't been rping lately. It's mostly been managerial things of late. We're only two weeks in. Eventually I will rp. Until then...stay tuned. Stories to come.

The Fashion
SL Art...I tried back a bit ago with windlight settings a couple years ago with Dou, when I went to Bentham Hollow to fool around.

Again, I step back into Bentham for The Menagerie - Theme 1: Beautiful Losers

Was a flicker, light

Rushed fast and pressed

Wings seemed hurried, churned

Breasts were heavy

Arms did cradle, empty

Thoughts spastic

Ideas made, answered

Realism sets in

Hand over stomach, full

Early morning cocktail

Holding hands, tight

Juice and crackers ate

Tears soothed, late

Empty beds did make

Strained emotions, tossed

Memories all but lost

(2007)

Skin: al vulo! - chen *waterdriad *Group Gift*

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Babysitters Club Lashes

Make-Up: Kyoot Makeup - Cateye 1 (Winter 1)

Hair: ""D!va"" Hair "Diva" (Mercury) *Group Gift)

Eyes: :[Plastik]: Haunt Collection - Frost

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Dress: Kyoot - Pretty White Dress

Shoes: *G Field* Flower Pumps "Eve" White

Pose: K**Stand

Location: Betham Hollow

Listening: Tori Amos "Spark"

#21 ~ First train home...got to get on..

2012-01-23T17:43:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
coldLogic is having a contest for those who have joined their subscribo group, which you can do so located: HERE. With it, you receive this Free Winter mesh dress that is a gift to you and a start to be showcasing what will be coming on February 1st, when they open their doors to the public.

For details on this contest you can read here.

*crosses her fingers!*
Avatar: Katya Valeska

Skin: Lara Hurley - Oksana (With Love Hunt)
Shape: My Own
Make-Up: ::Plastic Flowers:: Purple Smoke
Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Latex Liner Dark Burgundy *Gift*
Hair: fri.day - Apple - Natural Ginger
Eyes: :[P]: Vae Collection - Ancient
Eyelashes: Mynerva

Dress: coldLogic - Free Winter - Ruby *Group Gift*
Shirt: fri.day - Basic.Turtleneck (Oatmeal)
Leggings: Kyoot - Hollander Leggings (Black)
Boots: [GOS] Aviator Boots - Amelia in Worn
Gloves: Izzie's - Leather Gloves - Black
Necklace: (Elate!) Silver Pocket Watch Necklace
Bag: tulip. Breakable (Gray) (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Pose: Everglow
Location: Burley Village
Listening: Imogen Heap "First Train Home"

#20 ~ Random incorporation...

2012-01-22T19:01:00.000-08:00

The Real
So I'm a little behind in my writing.

When I first thought about coming over here, the idea was to do a 365 blog. It is to incorporate a mesh of my real life writings, ramblings and what-nots, along with the works of what I'm doing along with the sim that I currently run within Second Life with a few other friends, and the fashion that has grabbed me by the 'throat' - literally.

So, I still plan on doing that. 'Cept I need to get off my ass and catch up since this is blog #20 and it's January 22nd.... *sighs*

Well, Friday was my birthday - Happy Birthday to meeeeee...and I reached that pivotal age of mid-range that I wish I wasn't but I am, and the thoughts are in my head of where the fuck should I be. Do you ever ask yourself that? Are you where you're supposed to be? How does one get gumption to just get up and get what they want? Hmmm...if I knew, would things be just a tad bit easy to reach for? I question these little things because it's something that goes on in my head as I sit and study for the this exam I have to take in order to place into my Master's program. I think - I'm scared. I don't know why, but I am. I wish I knew...

The Paradise
We had a Town Hall Meeting today at the Penthouse of the Hotel Blanca on the sim. It was an OOC meeting to discuss what we're doing along the sim and what the players who are currently rping on the sim thought and had questions on. It went really well, things were brought up about sim wide rps, commodities, gun permits...sex. God, every sim I know needs sex. Yes - Sex Sells in RP.

The Fashion

Skin: -tb- Gatcha Skin: Mod (LS, light brows) (Season's Gatcha - Winter)
Shape: My own
Make-Up: ee. Midnight - Blue
Hair: Magika [Hair] Distracted - blonde
Eyes: ROZENA ~ Avian eye ~ Christmas red
Eyelashes: REDGRAVE - 19 DIVA

Top: MONS / Dress / Tekila - aqua
Pants: JANE - francie pants.raven
Belt: fri.day - Wide Waist Belt - Fruit Punch *FREE*
Boots: :)(: Ultimate Boots Black
Bag: Fleshtone :: The Huntingtone Bag [Glitter] *Group Gift*
Necklace: LaGyo - Adriel Necklace - Silver (C88)
Earrings: LaGyo - Adriel Earrings - Silver (C88)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Primitive City
Listening: Bjork "Venus As a Boy"

#19 ~ And you said goodbye..could you see my tears?

2012-01-21T21:19:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
When thinking of something for the upcoming color...I finally realized that I didn't want to follow just on the footsteps of what I thought others might just do. I have the Chain and Vine dress in my inventory. I do have the new coldLogic dress as well. Both group gifts that would fit perfect for this week's Color Challenge color of Iron on Luna's blog. But instead, I stepped away and dug down a bit deeper and pulled out something that I had only worn once and wanted to wear again. This shift dress from {So Many Styles}, just a store that I've always loved to go to.

Skin: [CIA] Sofiaskin NATURAL - Red Lips - Freckles (With Love Hunt)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: RAW HOUSE::: Kill Count Tears

Hair: [Shag] Black Tie Affair - Starlight

Eyes: :[P]:-Aleria Collection/Hypnotique - Dream

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Dress: {SMS} Asy Tunic Grey

Socks: Maitreya Moxie Over-Knee Socks - Mocha

Shoes: [ SAKIDE ] Latex Rubber Pumps - Gold (DepravedChristmas Hunt)

Scarf: Zaara - Kashish Scarf (FLF)

Gloves: Izzie's - Leather Gloves - Rust

Bag: Maitreya Leather Satchel - Mustard *MESH* (FLF)

Earrings: .( bewildebeest ). Alma Earrings - Gold -Mozambique Garnet (Store Closing)

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: Cupcake Sim

Listening: Madonna "Rain"

#18 ~ Socially acceptable...

2012-01-19T19:57:00.000-08:00

The Real
I've always been addicted to social media. Been in the know. Been into computers and the whatnot. I MySpaced, I Twittered, I telneted, I AOLed, I chatroomed, I have done it all. I still like to do it. Sometimes it does it get overwhelming and now and then it does stop me in my tracks and I have to take a step back and say....WHOA.

But then I jump back in like a kid in the bouncy ball room. Weeeeeeeee!

The Paradise
"Get together...right now...over me"... "hot time..summer in the city..."

The body count is rising. The Peacekeepers are making trouble by burning the clinic down, while the Rebels are shouting for blood. The locals are caught in the middle. Isa...is caught standing in the square, not knowing what to do..or where to precede.

The Fashion
You can connect with me here:
About Me: Simply Dou
Twitter: @Simplydou
Klout: Simply Dou
Plurk: Douleur

#17 ~ KISS...

2012-01-17T20:17:00.000-08:00

The Real
Now I can sit here and feel sorry for myself and be like...blah blah blah..or I can actually do something about it. So the idea is for me to do something about my life.
But really...where are you to start?

If I knew where the starting line was, I think I could do this.

I am procrastinating on my dream.

The Paradise
We've been one week in now. So it's been going slow. And I get that. It's hard for people, especially in the roleplay community to leave areas that they are comfortable in, even if they sit there and complain that they are bored and that they want a new place to rp in.

So, you start and idea, and you bring it to life. People are excited. Your groups are filling up. Opening day arrives...and you have five dedicated people rping on the sim! Great! But where are the rest...you can only last for so long with those five..or ten. You need more in order to thrive and survive.

In Second Life, especially in the roleplay community, sims come and go every other month. Those that do make it, make it because they push the envelope and they have people there that can be online all the time running. I worry on our sim. We don't have that. We have five of us that can only do so much and we're all on at different times.

I do believe we have a good niche. We have a great story that Paradise Lost has and once people can get their groove on and actually start to write, they'll see how much they'll love the way it flows. The rules are simply, not constrictive. It's one thing we take pride on, the simple things. KISS. Too many rules kill a sim. Drama kills a sim. Lack of encouragement kills a sim.

You start somewhere.

#16 ~ Drive...

2012-01-16T18:36:00.000-08:00

The Real
Motivation.

Lack there of. I get up. I move. I can't seem to foster anything else. January is not the best of months. Some may call it the blues. I'm in the City of Blues. Oxymoron. But I feel it. It's dragging down deep. In a few days it will be my birthday. I will be another year older, another year wiser and still....where?

Motivation withstanding.

The Paradise
I'm standing here alone.

The Fashion
Just...drive...

Skin: -tb- {LIght} C88 Fusion Skin - Light Brows (C88)
Shape: My Own
Hair: >TRUTH< - Velvet w/Roots - Swedish (Stumblebum Brigrade)
Eyes: .ID. December Group Gift / Green
Eyelashes: REDGRAVE -19- DIVA

Jacket: *COCO* Shirt & Parka (Check Red) Group Gift*
Tank: fri.day - Romcom Tank (White) (FLF)
Jeans: [ATOMIC] Skinny Jeans - Vintage
Boots: DECO - Harness Boots (small) *MESH* (FLF)
Bag: [Aura] My super oversize sack - Bear Rawr - Green *MESH*
Earmuffs: Willow~ Woodland Earmuffs - Bear (Season's Gatcha - Winter)

Pose: Torridwear *No longer*
Location: Three Moons Village
Listening: Dave Matthews Band "Drive In, Drive Out"

#15 ~ Je suis a toi...

2012-01-15T07:53:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
I told myself I would read more of the blogs this week, meaning I would go through a lot more and look at them, view the pictures - see what others are doing and maybe learn something new. After all, we learn from each other to make our own way.

Electric Indigo for Luna's 52 Weeks of Color Challenge Part Deux

Skin: -Glam Affair- Gio Natural - Fall/Winter (TDR)

Shape: My own

Make-Up: cheLLe (eyeshadow) Iced Frost Black

Hair: "LoQ Hair" Whisky II - Black-Blue (TDR)

Eyes: .ID. December Group Gift / Blue

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Dress: (PixelDolls) Serpentine . Iron *MESH*

Shoes: *G-Field* Strap Shoes "Alex" Blue

Necklace: LaGyo - Adriel - Gold (C88)

Earrings: LaGyo - Adriel - Gold (C88)

Pose: aDORKable

Location: The Worlds End

Listening: Engima "Mea Culpa"

#14 ~ She only comes out at night...

2012-01-14T15:36:00.000-08:00

The Real
A while ago - that is, a few years back, I used to write a lot. When I would write, it would be mostly poetry. Maybe a few words of prose, a couple short stories, and now and then a keepsake of memories laid out on a notebook to which words would tumble out in such a way that they would sound like whimsical music to the ears.

Even now, those words tremble like tiny notes in the breeze.

Then I stopped writing.

I'm not sure why I did. But when I stopped, I had no outlet. For a while I couldn't decide what to do with myself. Then while I was thinking and doing my own thing I came upon role-playing in Second Life. Within role-playing I was able to story tell. I was able to capture a story and tell it through my eyes.

But it also went beyond. I could create a character.

Those characters...could be anyone...and because they could be anyone, it allowed me to be open with myself and do things that would be unspeakable. To get down and dirty: sex, drugs, and rock & roll. That's what role-play is about - story telling. Whether you are doing it within a post apoc sim, a gorean sim, a steampunk sim, or a dirty urban city sim - it's story telling.

It keeps my fingers nimble and my mind creative.

The Paradise
We are moving along. Slowly but surely, Paradise Lost is gradually getting people and stories. It's taking it's time but we're getting people.

The Fashion
The Season's Gatcha - Winter has opened up. I themed some of my things around an idea of what someone in my sim would wear...a girl caught on her way back to the flophouse in the early morning after a night of work...

Skin: al vulo - frida *passion tan *Group Gift*

Shape: My own

Make-Up: [mock] Darkened Mood Garnets Makeover

Hair: Tiny Bird - Love You More - Deep Warm Black (FLF)

Eyes: .ID. December Group Gift / Brown

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Shirt: Lark - Enten Shirt - Pirouzeh (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Skirt: R.icielli - ANTO II highwaisted skirt / cherry*Winter Hunt*

Shoes: Ingenue ::Abrial Boot:: French Vanilla (SeasonsGatcha Winter)

Earrings: [ glow ] studio - Huge pearl Drop earrings (russetsilver) (Seasons Gatcha Winter)

Ring: PIDIDDLE - Gawdy Ring - Citrine (Seasons GatchaWinter)

Bag: Tee*fy Mini Crossbody Bag (Used Leather Red) (SeasonsGatcha Winter)

Pose: GLITERRATI

Location: Cassava Island

Listening: Hall and Oates "Maneater"

#13 The Learning Garden

2012-01-13T19:16:00.000-08:00

The Real (circa 2007)

I'veforever been a person, lost in the wonderment of my own childish ways. Gatheredby the ever growing number of people that come into my life, I can only graspso much from them the knowledge that they bestow.

Witheach bit, I cradle in my hands, like buds of spring flowers, ready to bloom forall to see. But mine seem to lay bare, naked without sun. They thirst forwater, begging for a fulfillment that I may not reach.

I wouldbe so careless to drop them, search out more that would bloom, or stuff them inmy pockets for later use. I would love to scatter them and watch them flower,but for what? Knowledge that I may not use, or could not? I may not understand.I am a bit slow in a lot of things, my grasp of detail not precise and I cannotdebate to save my life.

Butthen again, useless knowledge could come in handy. The ideas thrown around inmy mind, bounce like rubber balls that we played with as children. Ideas thatonly I could probably understand, and would in turn try to make you understand.It would sound like garbled mess, but after my understanding, you wouldprobably see a different me.

Everyword that I listen to I take in. My mind can only take so much before it's beenoverloaded and processed. I would so merrily hop away, playing the lost girlforever in her garden, but to tend the garden, one needs to know how to keep itfrom growing wild. So with each brand new idea, I tend to the blooms, seedingthe ground with the buds that I've been giving.

I haveno green thumb.

Lostwords tend to spring up and jumbled weeds take over most times. I work, pullingthe uselessness from the ground, allowing the buds that have bloomed to breathein. These I want to understand. These I want to learn from, the ones thatblossom so fully for me. Take me for granted, this is how I try. This is not meplaying the imbecile it's only me realizing that I cannot understand all. Inactuality, are we suppose to know all?

Skin: MOJO - MARAIA - Group Gift *Christmas*

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: R.icielli - Freckles 1

Eyes: :[Plastik]:-Haunt Collection-Hera's Gold (FLF)
Hair: LekLuka - AWE hair "Marilyn" *Group Gift*

Shirt: The Sea Hole - Minna Blouse - Sunbeam (C88)

Skirt: The Sea Hole - Heron Skirt - Sunbeam (C88)

Boots: ~gateau~ drover boot - sandstone

Necklace: (Caroline's Jewelry) Owl Necklace

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: Lula

Listening: Stevie Nicks "Witchy Woman"

#12 ~ Laundry day...

2012-01-13T10:54:00.000-08:00

The Fashion
I need a style.

Skin: -Glam Affair- Sofia Light - Winter
Shape: My own
Make-Up: cheLLe - (eyeliner) EyePop Lime
Make-Up :GP: Pout-Lips 1
Hair: >TRUTH< Becky - Mahogany *Group Gift*
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Blue
Eyelashes: Mynerva

Top: Kyoot - Soft Resolution Top (White) - Stumblebum Brigade
Skirt: ** [RIDDLE] ** Basic Sweater Dress - Oatmeal (part of)
Bra: *Fishy Strawberry* Lingerie - Soignee Nude
Socks: Kyoot - Soft Rsolution Knee Socks (White) - Stumblebum Brigade
Shoes: *FIR & MNA* The Bowlorama Shoes - Mint & Pink

Earrings: [PM] Pixel Mode - Pearl Earrings *Group Gift*
Bag: Berries Inc. Tote Bag {snowflake} *past hunt gift*

Post: aDORKable
Location: My home
Listening: Dusty Springfield "Breakfast in Bed"

#11 ~ Train of thought...

2012-01-11T20:06:00.000-08:00

The Real
Another day. Another application. I didn't study. Urgh.

The Paradise
Slowly but surely. The market is saturated. We'll find our footing. I hope we do. We have a good sim. A good storyline. I want this to work. I want to write...

The Fashion
I'm frustrated on how to actually have my pictures turn out like most. I look at others on Flickr and those on blogs and I know that there is a lot of photoshopping going on, and I really don't want to have to go and spend the time editing my pictures, but I feel that I have to in order to 'impress'. Is this really the way?

Skin: [Atomic] Grace Skin (DB) Buff - Winter Kiss (TDR)
Shape: My own
Make-Up: R.icielli - Freckles 3
Make-Up: Grixdale - Body Shoppe - Emerald
Make-Up: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty.-Spot-Lip-Tattoo
Make-Up: :GP: Pout-Lips 3
Hair: Analog Dog - Madison2 - House Wine - Christmas Gift
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Brown
Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: AOHARU [TFG] Jacket - Red
Tank: R.icielli - MSMONROE Longshirt / nude (TDR)
Pants: JANE - wide leg pant.zooey.truffle (fair) *MESH*
Shoes: fri.day - Dream.Booties (Cream)
Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Kitten
Purse: The Secret Store - Girly Briefcase - Cherry

Poses: [.doll]
Location: Great Eagle
Listening: A-Ha "Train of Thought"

#10 ~ Seas

2012-01-10T20:18:00.000-08:00

For an instance

To be drowned, alive

In your feverish wake

To feel the rolling of emotion

Crashing upon my feet, trail back

Leaving bits and flecks

Miniature cuts from your soul

For the moment

Walking into your waiting fathoms

To swallow your pride, heartache

To take comfort in the depths, pools

Of Neptune's flesh

Wanting forever to be

Part of fate

2007

s.o.a.

#9 ~ My world for a song...

2012-01-09T18:14:00.000-08:00

The Real

I want to believe in fairy tales. I want to believe thatthere is something out there to make this world…a little bit better.

So where do we find it?

Do we latch on to delusions of things? Conjure up mysteriesand mayhem to excite us? Fabricate a person to worship and rejoice in, and makeothers believe?

Tell me why you follow down the path you’ve chosen. Was itinstilled in you when growing up? Did you find your belief, your faith, or yournon-existent feelings on your own?

How do you decide if you’re going to be a good person, or aperson who cares only for themselves?

I want to believe in fairy tales. To blind my eyes withdreams of niceties, and fellow man. To drink heartily from the cup of life andnot let those that spout hatred and perform atrocities bother my soul.

But as an adult, I’m no longer allowed to believe in fairytales. I’m no longer allowed to believe that peace will reign one day. That ourEarth will stop weeping. That our children, and our future generations will seethe good that we have sowed, instead of the bad.

If I am allowed to believe, and within, belief in myself,then I won’t worry about the persecution that may come from what I chose tofollow.

I’m following a fairy tale.

The Paradise

We opened today. Good turn out. A little drama. "Oh I can't play here because so and so plays here and she's a whore." Uh...what? Hello? Kettle calling one black? We're all whores. Welcome to Second Life. Whore is an everyday word. Get used to it.

The Fashion

I've been reading a lot of J.D. Robb. Eve. Inspired.

Skin: :[Plastik]:-Aleria - Sandcastle-Flush (FLF)

Shape: My Own

Make-Up: R.icielli - Freckles 1

Hair: ::Exile:: Betty Lou - Midnight (Purple bow) (TDR)

Eyes: :[Plastik]:-Haunt Collection - Hera's Gold (FLF)

Jacket: .:A&M:. Punk Baby Outfit Leather Jacket

Shirt: -Tres Blah- C88 Graphic Tee - Leopard Cross (C88)

Pants: *Fishy Strawberry* Moto Pants Beige (Fashionably Late)

Shoes: [PM] Luna Leopard *MESH* (Group Gift)

Glasses: Alphavillain - Mathletics Sunglasses (large)

Earrings: [Aura] - Phosphorus - Club Hoops - Violet (Four Corners Event)

Parasol: The Sea Hole - Heron Parasol - Sunbeam

Gun: Titan Industries 92FS Beretta

Pose: GLITTERATI & Long Awkward Pose

Location: Sick

Listening: The Police "Murder By Numbers"

#8 ~ Isabella Maria Radcliff

2012-01-08T10:02:00.000-08:00

The Fashion

For this little challenge: Coral.

Skin: -Glam Affair- Monica Tan TRD 28
Shape: My own
Make-Up: cheLLe (eyeliner) EyePop Lime
Make-Up: *BOOM* Hard Candy - Pink Sugar
Hair: Raspberry Aristocrat - Dulciana - Brown Bittersweet
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / BlueGreen
Eyelashes: Mynerva

Top: JANE - Femme.lace Cami - Pink Blush
Skirt: JANE - Maxi Skirt - Lillith - Blush (fair) *MESH*
Shoes: Maitreya Gold * YaXkin Cocoa Sandals
Earrings: [Aura] Down Pour - Melon *VIP Group Gift*
Necklace: MIEL - UVA - Coral *Group Gift*

Pose: GLITTERATI
Location: The Dreamer's Islands
Listening: Silence (It's Sunday Morning)

The Paradise

Maybe what should be noticed about Isabella Maria Radcliffis the intensity of her eyes. Her mother always said that her eyes could bringdown the most worthiest of opponents if ever in a cat fight. Maybe it was true,but the woman that would step onto the island not even a few months after herthirty-second birthday hadn’t even thought of those words in years.

Isa was born to Paula Ora Carlona, a Cassava native and JohnMichael Radcliff, a British Navy Captain, on June 7^th, 1979. Life on Cassavawas a child’s playground – the beach, the sun and the wild. War, chaos andhunger lingered in the air but for a child, she would ignore as much as shecould, or as much as her mother would hide it from her. Even when those in thecantina would shout and argue about the El Generale and his men, thedissatisfaction of the people. No money. No food. Where was her father?

At the age of ten, she was shipped off to London to live with her father and stepmotherfor each school year, as stated in the divorce papers signed by both parentsduring the joint custody hearings. Her summers would be spent upon the Cassava Islandduring the first couple years, but as she grew older, she came home less often,opting to spend her summers in the English countryside, or to travel off to France or to America. She had the advantages sheknew others did not have, so she was bound to take them – why not. Who wantedto go back to a place that was so distraught and torn?

Upon graduating from high school, Isa decided to stay on,attending the London College of Fashion. Each and every semester, her excuseswould get more elaborate on not wanting to return to the island, much to hermother’s dismay – and even to her own father’s. It was like she shunned theoverall entity that was her culture. By the age of twenty-four, Isa finallyreturned to Cassava, only because her grandfather – her mother’s father – hadpassed away, and her mother had now been handed the reigns of the familybusiness.

Many years would pass by that time. Isa’s life would be whatshe deemed she wanted, buying textiles and fabrics for the fashion houses in London. The world sheknew in Cassava would only exist in letters she would receive from her mother,which she would now and then respond to around the holidays, sending money andgifts in exchange for her absences. It wasn’t until the day her father showedup at her flat that rainy Sunday afternoon to tell her…

…which landed her back at the door of the cantina, hermother – all but gone.

#7 ~ The Blue Lotus

2012-01-07T16:21:00.000-08:00

The Paradise

The Blue Lotus officially opened it’s doors on September 13^th,1957. On this day, Santos Jose Carlona and his wife, Regina Fae, tossed asidetheir worries and arms to embrace those they considered friends and foes – andlet them into their home, plying them with the best they could offer in rumsand local fare. From this the Lotus would become the staple of Cassava’s simplecuisine, giving way to many of those who came ashore to sample the islands fareand drinks.

As the years went by, the Lotus would gain notoriety on it’sown as the dwelling of those who rambled in the making of rebellion. Theyloitered in the corners of the bar, in the booths, behind the kitchen build.Talking with Papi, as Santoswould become called (by his granddaughter Isa), along with his long-time friendPao – they would rise up the ranks of the locals, yet keep the dogs at bay.Each time the Peacekeepers came to the door, sniffing to see what they wouldfind, Papi would take the brunt, showing he would not throw his fellow Cassavianunder foot.

Upon his passing, the Lotus would be handed to his daughterPaula, who – divorced from John Radcliff in the early 1980s, would continue thetradition that her father had done so well. Keeping the locals and touristsalike, happy with fare and spirits. Even during times of strife, when theisland would seem to want to cave in on itself, and those that had fought todefend it’s freedom seem to have lost hope, the cantina’s doors remainedopened, keeping a dim light burning – a glass filled to drink one’s sorrow.

Pao still remained with Paula during this time, neverleaving her side. He was like a steady rock, keeping the cantina running whileshe raised and nurtured her daughter when Isa was at home. As the years went onand civil war loomed, everything seemed to start to fall apart. El Generale hadseized control of the city-state in a military coup, running Bepe (Cassava’sPresident-cum-protectorate) out of the country. People were dying, disappearing– talks of rebellion began again through the walls of the cantina, this timelouder – then to only…go silent.

Life seemed a bit dismal. But it continued. The Blue Lotusstill kept it’s doors open. People walked into them and left through them.Paula and Pao saw to that each and everyday, even as her daughter Isa stayed inLondon, goingto school, growing up – then working. It wasn’t until May of 2011 that Isafinally returned to Cassava, to the Lotus.

Paula Ora Carlona had passed away.

The Blue Lotus was officially Isabella Maria Radcliff’s.

#6 ~ Hotel Blanca

2012-01-06T18:33:00.000-08:00

The Hotel Blanca - Paradise Lost Roleplay - Opening Monday, January 9th, 2012

#5 ~ Bombs away...

2012-01-05T20:18:00.000-08:00

The Real
Again I waited until the last moment to write. Not that I meant to, but it kind of just happened. Today was busy running around doing errands with my mom, getting ready for her and my dad's vacation, teaching my twenty year old brother to drive (yes...he's twenty..a late bloomer), and having to drive to campus to drop off things to the other brother, who doesn't have a car. I sometimes wonder if I'm just another "mom" in the making. Sister sure, but caregiver.

Tomorrow they leave for a week, which means that for a week, the youngest and I have the place to ourselves. Which means - no one to watch over my head. I kinda miss that. I miss living by myself. I've done it for so long, and finally when I moved back home, it felt so weird living with people again. Constantly having people walk in and out of my room at will. Looking over my shoulder. Questioning on what and why I do things. I had been so used to my own embodied closure that I am not used to the openness of having one snooping at my work. Especially on what I do at times. Even while I read.

It's annoying for sure.

I do wish they had a better craft beer selection down here. I'm craving.

The Paradise
Four more days.

Some things got set aside. Busy time on the forums, and we got some more applications. I had to laugh a little as I read some of them. Don't get me wrong - people are allowed their own devices and stories when roleplaying. This is THEIR fantasy. But it's a trip to read and see what some do think of. It makes you wonder why some get labeled as they do. It's all relative.

I still need to write up the Blue Lotus' background. Urgh.

The Fashion
SIMS! Love finding a really nice sim and then...why do they always put a piece of silly prim in the middle of it to completely ruin the whole ambience?

Skin: *JeSyLiLO* ::XmasGift2011:: *PALE*BT
Shape: My own
Make-Up: None
Hair: [Shag] Voulez-Vous (Roots) - Butterscotch
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / Gray

Jacket: R.icielli - ALEXANDRA Leather Python Jacket - TDR
Tank-Top: *Fishy Strawberry* Lingerie - Incanto Red - Sheer - TDR
Pants: Maitreya - Leather Leggings - Oil (MESH)
Shoes: *G-Field* Flower Pumps "Eve" - Red

Gloves: Izzie's - Leather Gloves - Dark Grey
Ring: R.icielli - IRIS Skull Ring / Gold - TDR
Purse: ::Duh!:: Little Black Clutch (DIMH)

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: R.icielli Main Store
Listening: Imogen Heap "First Train Home"

#4 ~ Vacation can't last forever...

2012-01-04T18:07:00.000-08:00

The Real
... The desire to write tonight is not there. Maybe I should try to write in the morning. Or afternoon. I think I'm just too frustrated.

The Paradise
Five more days. So much to do.

The Fashion
Christmas gift from Kris. About time I get to wear some swimwear...

Skin: -Glam Affair- Layla Light - tropicana BL *TDR*

Make-UP: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty-Spot-Lip-Tattoo

Make-Up: cheLLe - (eyeliner) EyePop Tangerine

Make-Up: Grixdale - Body Shoppe - Powder - Blush (20%)

Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Tattoo Layer 01

Hair: >TRUTH< Kalia Streaked - Swedish

Bikini: LeeZu~ - BohoBikini - Yellow

Shoes: [Gos] Espadrilles - In Bloom

Bag: Tres Blah Group Gift

Sunglasses: Apple May Designs - Big Shades (With Love Hunt)

Pose: Olive Juice & GLITTERATI

Location: Cassava Island

Listening: Pasty Cline "Crazy"

#3 ~ Heading...

2012-01-03T18:35:00.000-08:00

The Real
Studied. One job post. Headache.
Had a doctors appointment to remove the skin blemish that has been dogging me for a few weeks now, so no more pain and bleeding. Just going to have a scar to deal with now. I just feel so tired.

The Paradise
Arguments.

The Fashion
Why can I never find good sims to take pictures in?

Skin: .ILLUSORY. Skin Paige Warmth Group Gift

Shap: My own

Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Lust 1

Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Miss Priss Lipgloss 1 (clear)

Eyes: Poetic Colors - Summer Wheat

Hair: [Shag] Falling Slowly (bangs) - Autumn (Seasons Hunt)

Eyelashes: Mynerva

Jacket: {SMS} Fur Shrug

Shirt: -paper.doll- Sydney Black dress (With Love Hunt)

Pants: =Zenith= 3/4 Black Leggings

Boots: [GOS] Curvaceous Boots

Necklace: [ glow ] studio - Crosses Necklace - Gold

Earrings: Osakki // Flat Disks - Copper

Bracelets: Osakki // HAMUR. MetalCuff Copper

Bag: .:vive9:. Evonne Fringed Bag in Brunt Orange (With Love Hunt)

Pose: Olive Juice

Location: Missing Mile - Soap

Listening: Tori Amos "Girl"

#2 ~ You don't know jack...

2012-01-02T18:47:00.000-08:00

The Real
As the day begun, I could only think that my to do list was something I needed to start doing. The first being was to actually get up. Second, I was to actually get on the ball and do SOMETHING. It's strange being without work. Being without a job. I haven't been jobless for a very long time, and to be without one, especially for the type of person I am, gives me a feeling that my self worth isn't fulfilled.

Now I did have a job. But when I finally decided to go back to school (grad school that is) there was many things that I needed to do and one of those things was actually leaving the job I was currently at. I was going to be moving out of state, moving back in with the rents, de-cluttering my life, basically tossing my whole world into a massive upheaval of ...well a whirl wind.

So now I play the job hunting game.

I wish I could say that the feeling was easy, or at least - exciting, but in a way, it's not. It's nerve racking. You don't want to settle for less, but you're dismayed due to the extensive amount of qualifications 'needed' for a job. You must have this, or this much experience, or this much schooling. I know it's part of the reason why I'm going back to school. Even if I'm now eight months off my schedule. But, hey - it will save me $20,000. I will take it. Still, it's a bit heartbreaking, knowing you have so much knowledge sitting inside, and years of experience, yet there might be a few things you lack. Should that be tossed out? I'm not sure...

The Paradise
We are a week out from the grand opening of the sim. As Kris is finishing the build, the rest of us are putting on the finishing touches, well trying.

Working on a sim is not easy. It's a collaboration of people's ideas and thoughts. It's our dreams brought to fruition. Of course, we have our bumps and grinds, but what sim doesn't?

I've been itching to role-play for a little over two months now. Ever since Perdition closed, I haven't really been able to find a sim that has made me feel as comfortable to actually story-tell again, and because I now have this vision in my head of who my character is for Paradise Lost and Isa is ready to come out and play.

As for the next week: recruitment, building, NPC stories, more stories for the archives. I have to still write up the story for the Blue Lotus. We need a staff meeting. That will be done through Skype. All five of us are scattered throughout the world: me in Memphis, one in Canada, another on the west coast, one in England, and on in UAE. We are amazing.

The Fashion
It's a burning desire, but since the sim will open my shopping will have to slow...

Skin: :Plastik: Aleksandra - Ginger
Shape: My own
Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Tableau Lashes *FREE Gift*
Make-Up: Cheap Makeup - Miss Priss Lipgloss 1 (clear)
Hair: ::Exile:: Veronique - Autumn/Fawn *Group Gift*
Eyes: Poetic Colors - Summer Wheat - Special Hunt Freebie
Tattoo: :Plastik: Feathers - worn

Sweater: [ SAKIDE ] Posh Winter White *With Love Hunt*
Skirt: [Aura] Bullet Proof - Ruffled Pencil Skirt - Skull - Small (MESH)
Boots: FIR & MNA The Orann Boots - Brown *Last FLF*
Bag: PRISS - Lang Suede Satchel - Dark Brown *Group Gift*

Pose: GLITTERATI
Location: Great Eagle
Listening: Alice in Chains " Man in the Box"

#1 ~ The next morning...

2012-01-01T16:49:00.000-08:00

...after all the champagne has been consumed, we begin our new year. It's time for a new beginning, a new chance, a time to shake the old and grab a new glass. Within this moment we all take a mental break and think what would make us better:

- lose weight
- don't drink too much
- stop smoking
- be better people
- get that job!
- fall in love

... and so much more.

I think after many failures of past resolutions that for once, I need the smaller day to day ones. For this - this will be a 365.

Real life. Second Life. Media. Social. All the in between.

Luna Jubilee's 52 Weeks of Color Challenge: Champagne

Skin: -Glam Affair- Jadis - Natural B - TDR # 24
Shape: My own
Make-Up: [mock] Darkened Mood Garnets
Hair: [Shag] Pretty Please - Scarlet *Group Gift 2011*
Eyes: .ID. December Gift / BlueGreen
Eyelashes: Mynerva

Top: Tee*fy Cutout Dress Nude 5 *Last FLF*
Skirt: R.icielli - BEATRIZ Sequined miniskirt / gold - TDR
Heels: R.icielli - CARMELIA Pumps / Crema - TDR
Jewelry: [ glow ] studio - Glossy Heart Set *With Love Hunt*

Pose: GLITTERATI & K** Stand Poses
Location: Cassava Island
Listening: Imogen Heap "Goodnight and Go"

O Christmas...

2011-12-25T20:35:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas to you and to those around. Happy Holidays. <3

Skin: [Atomic] Grace - Mistletoe (With Love Hunt)

Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Humility 1

Make-Up: [mock] Darkened Mood Garnets Makeover

Hair: [Shag] Naked As We Came - Fever

Dress: Ladies Who Lunch - Angel Christmas - Group Gift

Shoes: Ladies Who Lunch - Escarpa (With Love Hunt)

Pose: The Muse Poses

Location: Statis Island

Listening: Celtic Christmas "O Christmas Tree"

At world's end...

2011-12-22T18:36:00.000-08:00

I am silly in love with mesh.

Strangely enough being in SL for these past five years has shown me a lot. I've seen the clothes take form from so many different angles that right now - mesh is almost so life-life it's almost too real. I can almost touch it at times.

I quickly just hopped over and picked up the demo at Celoe for the new Zoe Pumps. I haven't tried them on yet, but I will when I log back in. Right now, I just want to write and procrastinate. Maybe dream a little dream. Prior to that, my cohort and I were just idling on sim - the sim we'll be opening in less than two weeks to the public. A sim that we've spent almost two months preparing for our enjoyment. I wonder when it opens my love again of fashion will be tossed to the wind and I will forget, or worse...let go...

Skin: -Glam Affair- JadisV2 Snow Queen

Make-Up: [mock]Darkened Mood Garnets Makeover

Hair: "LoQ" Pure Beauty - Black

Bodysuit: MONS- Natasha - powder pink (With Love Hunt)

Skirt: La Dernier Lamento

Boots: *G Field* Lace-Up Boots - Gina - Fog *MESH*

Necklace: La Nuit Du Chasseur Collar

Headpiece: La rose noire de la Reine

Prop: Crooked Designs - Wind-Up Doll Key ~ Elegant Dark

Pose: [.doll] and The Muse

Location: World's End Garden

Listening: Madonna "Frozen"

When he calls...

2011-12-20T11:27:00.000-08:00

I enjoy speaking with him on the phone. It's the little bit that counts. I know we only speak every few weeks, even before, when it used to be every few days, but still - even if he is across the pond, our lives still come together and we make the effort to call one another to touch base. To touch each others lives. I can still feel his fingers upon my face. It's the caring that I enjoy...its what makes it real.

Skin: Grixdale - Teagan - Mint - Draft *Retired*

Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Liner - Diligence 1

Make-Up: [PXL] Teeth Bracers

Hair: Magika [Hair] Safe - Brown

Sweater: =Zenith= Ball Ball Sweater Jacket Golden (With LoveHunt)

Sweater: *Fishy Strawberry* Knit Sweater Powder

Skirt: Armidi Limited Classic A001 Jean Skirt Dirty

Tights: JANE lil piggies tights.fuzzy white fawn

Boots: {mon tissu} Heathrow Boots - Ash *Mesh*

Gloves: d.select wool gloves - Winter pattern white (WithLove Hunt)

Barrette: ::Happy Finds:: Rose Pink Hair Pin

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: Three Moons Village

Listening: Underworld "Dirty"

Studying with Santa...

2011-12-19T10:26:00.000-08:00

The GRE book sits open..the GMAIL calendar display is idle on my screen...upon screen...upon screen. I should get myself in order, but my mind is a mash of mix emotions that I can't even get intuned. Intuned. *checks to see* Entuned...no...intune...oh fuck it. Spelling has never been my best. Grammatical errors abound! That's what my marketing research professor stated over the semester. Great works - the discussions were wonderful, but the slight grammar errors. I write quite well, he said.

I'm trying hard to think. I really am. Rock bottom hurts. More so lately, cause I'm not sure where I am going with a lot of things. It's the "woe is me" angle I'm guessing. Back during the reign of MySpace, blogging used to be such an outlet that I could just write to my hearts content and people would read and people would comment and we'd have a little ball and that's where we'd go to get our woes and whatnots out. Now I wonder who will read this modge podge of stuff that is tossed into a blog. So random.

I will sit here and make up a calendar that will be the outlet that designs what I will do for my GRE. My GRE will allow me to go to graduate school in the fall to pursue my MBA. It's to better my life. To succeed, to advance. To make something. That's it. To be ... at least something. That's all we really want. Don't we all?

Skin: [CIA] Sofia Skin Natural - Red Lips (With Love Hunt)

Make-Up: [Misc. Inc.] I Love Line - Kindness 2

Hair: >TRUTH< BabyDoll 2 - Burgundy

Ears: :[P]: Lionheart Elven Ear - Myth

Sweater: [SAKIDE] CashmerePull White 1

Skirt: ::C'est la vie !:: retro print dress (League ofChristmas Hunt)

Warmers: *BOOM* Arm Warmers - Christmas Edition *MESH*(League of Christmas Hunt)

Scarf: MALT - Green Scarf (KittyCat Advant 2011)

Socks: Modd.G = Trix Sheer Socks Green

Shoes: *G Field* Strap Shoes - Alex - Red

Mouth: :[P]: Omnom Holly-Double

Pose: GLITTERATI

Location: Three Moon Village
Listening: Michael Buble "Santa Baby"

What I have become

2011-12-18T09:41:00.000-08:00

We're a week from Christmas. It's the first time in four years for me. I'm home. Technically in the flesh with family - home. I guess it's a bit strange. I'm older, to say the least that being with family is a good thing for the holidays, but I find myself an introvert when it comes to these types of things. I am not the "blood is thicker than water" type of person. My family usually consists of those not of my blood, but of those I've gained along my journey of life.

Moving "home" has had it's ups and downs. I'm horribly missing the independence of my life, my existence of play in which I could do as I please. Seventy-five percent of my life tossed in ways that are gone, and the other twenty-five held down to continue on as I try to make sense of what the hell I'm going. At one time there was a method to the madness, now I'm not so sure. Maybe soon...

SL still holds a release during the madness though, with it's escape. I still cradle it in my arms and delve deep. Mesh finally reared it's head. It's all over the blog-sphere. I, for one, have jumped along...and yes..I too have taken that picture of the dress. How can I not?

Paradise opens in a couple of weeks. We are about ready. The story is set. Beauty is ready. I wonder if I will freeze upon the first week, if my writer's block will happen - that the story I want to tell will not come from my fingers. Will I hate that those that I want to tell will hate her story? I never know...It's always anxiety with me in these regards.

Skin: .::Mother Goose's::. HENA(2)B00
Make-Up: =[Pom.Pon]= Beauty-Spot-Lip
Make-Up: -Glam Affair- Tattoo Layer 01
Hair: [e] Comfort - Brown 11

Dress: Maitreya Nolia Indigo MESH *New*
Shoes: [e] Move Pumps - Antique
Bag: LaGyo - The Desperado Bag
Hair Piece: PIDIDDLE - Netted Flower
Necklace: *League* Vintage Double Stranded Soft Pearl Necklace
Earrings: *League* Vintage Heart Earrings

Pose: Olive Juice
Location: Cassava Island *Coming Soon!*

Intro...

2011-12-12T09:30:00.000-08:00

The last time I took a pen to paper was probably a couple years ago. Back then, it was easy to do. I would take an empty notebook, grab the first black pen I could find (I abhor blue) and write till I couldn't. Of course, during those times, I was going through troubles that most people tend to go through: messy relationships, the language of love, finding that love, trying to keep that love, and most often - just trying to live LIFE.

Writing though shouldn't be hard. It used to flow so easily. Like water, when I would turn a faucet on, and it would would gush out. So much that I couldn't keep up with it. Or maybe, during my blogging years on MySpace, I just liked the feeling of people reading. Maybe that's what I want again. Who's going to read this now? I'm not sure. For many - me, really...I just need an outlet. Outlet to get things out.

Nothing is really going to be spoken real. Nor is it going to be spoken false. Realism will be found in the posts I'm sure of it, and I'm sure that what I will write about - the people are real, and those people will have names, even if I change them to keep it safe and behind closed (or screened doors).

Random things will happen. Random links. Sites. Media. LIFE. What happens. Ramblings. Yes, I still ramble. I don't think I ever stopped.

Le final project is due tomorrow. Our RP sim opens in a couple weeks. I'm ready to get down, dirty, gritty and make the most of my character. I'm ready to create.

And I want snow.

Skin: Grixdale - Ren - Sugar - Clover *Retired*
Make-Up: PIDIDDLE - Chapped Lips & Cheeks / Full Face/ Teeth
Hair: >TRUTH< Snow Kitty - Carob

Dress: **[ Riddle ]** Winter Blues Dress - Grey
Tights: **[ Riddle ]** Cozy TIghts - Light Grey
Boots: magi take engineer boots [gray]

Pose: flowey